Every year, I begin Holy Week with the Book of Lamentations. I do this for two reasons. First, it s a legacy from my father, a scholarly lay reader who believed it was spiritually lazy not to concentrate in the run up to the most momentous event in the Christian calendar. My other reason is that Ronald Blythe once wrote in the Church Times that this book from the Old Testament was his set text for Holy Week, that it thrilled him with the grandeur of its sadness . I ve never experienced Blythe s thrill, because, somehow, I never reach the end. Although it s only five chapters long, I get worn down by the sorry state of Jerusalem and all its inhabitants. I also get distracted by my own difficult, everyday lamentations. Still, if the grandeur of sadness is your thing, Holy Week 2008 was all you could ask for.
In a strange convergence of ecclesiastic calendar and modern history, Holy Week coincided with the fifth anniversary of the beginning of the war in Iraq. The days began with the Today programme recounting of those events, and ended each evening in front of the news with Jon Snow s reports on life in Iraq now. As the week progressed it felt more and more like a Mel Gibson re-enactment of Lamentations, with its historical setting of the fall of Jerusalem to the Babylonians, the destruction of the city, the abject conditions of those who were left behind.
Between the beginning and ending of these broadcast laments, lambs were born. Lambs arriving during Holy Week have a Biblical poignance. The Old Testament is full of shepherds looking for new pastures. The Gospel for the Sunday after Easter begins Jesus said, I am the good shepherd . All week long, our pastures were transformed into windswept tundras, with howling winds and bitter rain, hail and snow. Each morning, I tried to scoot the newborns and their mamas into the shed. Without a sheepdog, this is a job that requires picking up the lambs and encouraging their mothers to follow. There are no sheepdogs in the Bible either, an oversight that Jesus may have lamented during the parable of the lost sheep. Once inside the shed, I settle down, a lamb tucked inside my jacket, and my radio tuned into Book of the Week. The choice for Holy Week was Julian Barnes Nothing To Be Afraid Of, a meditation on mortality and the fear of death. He begins: I don t believe in God, but I miss Him.
By the time Easter Sunday arrived, the snow had descended like a veil over the countryside, a climatic version of the cloud in Lamentations, created so that our prayers should not pass through . Modern theologians claim that Lamentations is not a breast-beating, self-pitying lament, but an account of a disaster that, without offering easy grace or cheap hope, tells us how to handle grief. It s a useful interpretation when there is much to grieve about. The cries of the bewildered ewes as we take away the lambs that didn t survive the freezing night. The milestone of 4,000 American soldiers dead reached by Evensong on Easter Sunday. Tibetan monks dying for freedom. Houses repossessed. I could go on.
But I m trying not to dwell on the grandeur of sadness , but to marvel at what has lived. Daffodils that survived the snow. Lambs that have begun their lamb games and the bereaved ewe that has adopted a hungry triplet. The hope that someday even this war will end. And here s the Lamentation for the Day: you can believe in God and still miss Him.
